As many times as I repeated my laundry list of practical reasons, it wasn’t enough to quiet my unsettled soul.
I have always been the type to play it safe, stick to what I know, and cling to familiarity. Fear has been a faithful friend, whispering reminders of the dangers that await me. While others are jumping out of airplanes (hypothetically and literally), I am the one taking pictures and panicking on their behalf from the ground.
When word started to spread about my friends Jon and Kelley planting a church in Indiana, let’s just say I wasn’t the first one in line to sign up. When Jon would casually bring up joining the launch team, I would laugh and give him a list of reasons why it was just not possible. You see, I owned a home, my family and close friends were in Florida, I had a stable job, and oh, I hated the cold. As many times as I repeated my laundry list of practical reasons, it wasn’t enough to quiet my unsettled soul.
I was reluctant to ask the Holy Spirit for clarity and guidance because I knew he might say “Go” and I didn’t feel ready for that response. After months of me saying “No” and telling God all the reasons why He must not be thinking clearly, I finally let my heart settle on maybe. God used my maybe. And without knowing it, my maybe turned into a yes.